me :)

2010-10-31T06:38:00.000-07:00

it has been ages since i clicked this webpage. i guess i am too free.

the ridiculous thing is that i will be sitting my final exam tomorrow. great huh? and i am giving myself this excuse that i am too free, so i probably should check on my dead blog. i just don't have the mood to study. its not the same as pmr or spm. i am perturbed of this *not afraid* attitude towards my finals.

i browsed through all the blog posts, the memories.... its just nice to read them back.

time really flies. i am turning 18 next week. seriously, i can feel myself getting older after reading my blogposts few years back.

just ended my college life, going uni soon. starting a new chapter soon. afraid to face more challenges.

one by one, they left to different parts of the world. counting the days when they can step their foot into their hometown again :')

wish that time could stop when i was in high school. miss every single moments.

i guess i need to stop crapping here and revise the last time before tomorrow. goodnight world.

happy halloween. :)

2010-04-20T04:55:00.001-07:00

its just a random post that i just need to shout my heart out..

i know that no one will read my blog so yea.. that is the point..

one word that described me now is LOST.

college's life is not that easy for me..

I am still wondering whether I chose the correct path and will I regret it.

I am so disappointed with my results that I don't even know I can reach my dreams.

I admit that I am too competitive and this just sucks.

Until now, its almost half a year in college and I am still trying to fit in when everyone around me has already moved on.

this is just so not me and sometimes it just drives me crazy.

I thought of this matter for a very long time and admit that this is life and there are more to come.

i just hate to be alone. it really sucks. i seemed to be like someone with everything but deep inside, i am just weak and i want someone to be there for me and with everyone surrounding me...

depressed~

love it..

2010-03-12T18:48:00.000-08:00

had a bad day..

but, it was something memorable..

crazy, funny, kinda embarrassing..

but i love it, thanks :)

p/s i didn't meant to say all that.. but u have just hurt my feelings so much. it seems like you don't understand me at all.. i am really sorry.

2010-03-08T04:35:00.000-08:00

its been ages since i blog.. guess kinda bored even though assignments are piling up and i have acc test tomorrow..

SPM result is coming out this thursday.. f*ck!! shaking right now.. i am seriously afraid and don't wanna face the reality.. OMFG!!

its been almost one and half year since i got this feeling.. but this feeling goes to someone i would not even expect to be.. its just impossible.. now i know what this feeling is like.. its hard and weird..

thank you.

2009-11-08T05:21:00.000-08:00

Thanks for everything :)

maybe its the last celebration for us,

but we will always stay in each other's heart, right?

I am officially 17. hehe..

hope that it will be normal again.

such a silly mistake :(

we are truly sorry...

10 days left, and what am I doing?

save me!!

Phantom of the Opera

2009-10-26T01:56:00.000-07:00

Was browsing through all my paper works and I found something memorable. Something lost and perhaps forgotten.

A flash back occurred. I can still remember Ms. Ravina, our English teacher then gave us a project which is: An I-movie about our literature that year, Phantom Of the Opera.

The project, if not mistaken took two long days. We actors and actresses are very "professional" one okay? *laugh*

I am not sure where the movie went to but the scripts will always be kept.

The first scene we repeated like dunno how many times ( I am sure u guys can remember xD)

Annie Sorelli: Quick! Quick! Close the door! It's him!!

Everyone: Who? Where? What's the matter?

Annie Sorelli: It's the ghost! In the passage. He came through the wall in front of me... I saw his face!!

We managed to take a few pictures. Not many pictures of us in our 'costumes' but I can remember I took one picture in a pregnant lady's dress -.- ( yup, that is my 'costume'. I was Madam Giry)

p.s jiann meng was involved in this too but no picture of him. he was the cameraman.

time passes so quickly. I will be graduating this friday :( sht!

2009-10-11T06:53:00.000-07:00

can I ever reach my goal?

can I make them proud?

am I dumb?

why am I such a disappointment?

why is everything not working well?

am i lying to myself?

can i end everything?

so many questions and yet no perfect answers.....

lost...

2009-10-03T22:40:00.000-07:00

The government has changed the grading system and a new grade which is A+. Is it a good thing? I don't know.. Was trying hard and pray to help my parents during my college life but I think my hopes can wished me goodbye. I couldn't possibly get A+. :(

Anyways, had a stress free day without any tensions or worries. I had only one tuition yesterday so my mum asked me to relax.. So shocking.. Went karaoke and shout my whole lungs out. Seriously, I felt much more relieved.

accidentally took this picture. Pretty right?

the pathetic us. *laugh*

After that, we had our tuition. Then at night, one of my neighbours had a moon-cake festival party. The kids were playing candles and tanglungs. I joined them. It was actually fun. I think i didn't touch tanglungs for dunno how many freaking years. It reminds me of my childhood times. So yeah, a stress-free day and I am gonna dig into my books again the next day. Good luck to me..

2009-10-02T17:16:00.000-07:00

Happy Moon cake Festival people :)

went to ms. tang's place for revision. End up doing moon cake. The children were supposed to make their own moon cakes in conjunction with moon cake festival. Its so cute to see them with flour all around their faces. Everything were prepared so just a few steps then done. Our supposedly revision end up into a baking lesson. Such disappointment. Aiks..

Oh yea, this is snow skin moon cake ;) *laugh*

who is that grandma? ><

snow skin moon cakes. lurve them :)

hopeless

2009-09-10T03:33:00.000-07:00

I am feeling really hopeless right now.

Am sorry for what I did.

Ur heart is already hurt, but i make it even worse.

I didn't expect that would come.

Am starting to miss you.

Hope that everything went well.

Pray that you will be fine and nothing will happen in the future.

my dear doublejut.

luv you always. :)

2009-09-05T07:41:00.001-07:00

HAHAHAHA!!!

Trials is going on and I am still going out. Actually not that bad lah.. Just a dinner. Japanese dinner. hehehe. Just cannot resist Japanese food. Its actually a last minute thing and so yeah..

Went to Razuken or Rakuzen ( Cannot remember the real name ) with woooo yiiinggs family.

As usual, going crazy like nobody business. Okay. Enough talking.

Enjoy the pics :)

Lurve the shape of the wasabi. So pretty...

Yummy, yummy..

The heart got a bit cacat..

sake.

It looks like we wore the same shoe but actually, nope :)

p.s good luck people. Continue with your hard work :)

I don't really care actually. I need to concentrate. just leave me.

2009-08-30T05:45:00.000-07:00

Prefects' socials 2009 had just ended. Should be my last socials. *Sigh* Another last word. Is like I am gonna die like that.

This time, we did it in Brenda and Edmond's house. Had fun eating only two choices of barbeque food. *laugh* That is sausage and marshmallow. How pathetic but we had fun though.

The pics~

hehe. thanks zoe :)

using a fan to barbeque? heard anything like that before?

27th Aug 2009

2009-08-30T05:25:00.002-07:00

Another final departure after 5 years.

Sure gonna miss the memories.

How many more gonna come?

Can't believe that we shed our tears.

my prom date :)

thank you for your guidance all these years.

p/s no worries. still gonna meet you during prom.

2009-08-26T19:25:00.000-07:00

J YINNS BIRTHDAY.

had fun in sunway lagoooonnn :) and in her house.

love the cupcakes. thanks.

Love you always sunshine ;)

p.s try observing the cupcakes xD

2009-08-20T06:52:00.000-07:00

i love this wedding dress :)

most girls

dream for a fairy-tale story.

will it happen?

now,

the impossibles can achieve.

the "obvious" loses everything.

2009-08-14T05:06:00.000-07:00

its been ages since I last update my blog. Like my new blogskin?

I have nothing much to update about just something about my aunt's wedding.

my whole family from my father's side.

Dear, will always stand beside you and support you :) Always be strong and don't bother anything. Heart you always.

2009-07-31T22:52:00.000-07:00

currently in my parent's hometown now, Ijok for my auntie's wedding. She looked so beautiful today :) Finally, she has a guy to love her, be with her, care for her for the rest of her life. Its really time for her to get married because she is already in her 30s.

Who will be my man? I wonder.....

Life is not easy. Got a long talk with someone very special to me. That talk made me realized a lot of things. Which is true? Which is false? I don't know. I will just move on. I am really confident that I am not stupid and I too had feelings. I am the person who don't show my thoughts which are hidden inside me. Nobody knows.

p.s plz don't ask what am I writing about. I don't know too... thanks. *laugh*

2009-07-24T03:48:00.000-07:00

dying for:

1. SPM to over.

2. my hair dyed :)

3. pierce my ears

4. shopping :D (hungry for clothes now)

5. Cempaka prom

6. Sri Garden prom

7. trips with my bffffss

8. college

9. driving license

10. NS? *laugh*

the list go on and on... working hard to reach it..

my eyes kept on twitching since 3. Is starting to get annoying when your eyes twitched for almost 4 hours. zzz.

i hate this week.

sorry. i am not mean. i had my own reasons.

hate me? like me? i dun give a damn. you just don't know me well.

FAME!

2009-07-20T06:05:00.000-07:00

went for FAME today, its their last show..

before that, went to leisure mall again to watch Harry Potter and the Half-blood Prince with jyiinn and joooshuaaa.. My hair nice or not? ><>

FAME is nice :) even nicer to watch it on the last day.. almost everyone cried. even someone i unexpected..

18th July 2009

2009-07-20T05:17:00.000-07:00

GAAHH!!! Japanese food again... I just love it :) Even though I am full, I still can stuff Japanese food inside my mouth.. hehe..

Me and my shorthy aka 're' aka woo ying aka lou po zai- ehem.. *laugh* decide to hang out in sushi king after our tuition. So, she FETCHED me to leisure mall's sushi king. One word to describe her driving- speechless..

enjoy the pics :)

we saw this singer performing.. I think he is from hongkong/ taiwan. Not very famous coz not many fans around.. Kinda pity him. keke.

before

after.. thanks to someone.. -.-

my unagi :( :(

and she can enjoy hers

movie marathon

2009-07-12T06:33:00.000-07:00

me and my darling wife planned to watch transformers together but she broke our promise and went to watch it with her family last week. I didn't 'blame' her, so I decided to watch it this week with my family instead. She said she wanted to join too and didn't want to break our little promise :) Awh.. So sweet right? Thats why I love her... hehe.

Before the movies, we did CHEMISTRY revision at Ms. Tang's place. Rajin right? Haha..

The pictures.

I was camwhoring after i finished my work.

so hardworking ar?

in the car..

guess what? we watched 2 movies in a row. Lucky both movies are not boring if not I will definitelysleep on the comfy cinema chair..

hehe.. first IGE AGE 3 at 1 and it ended at 2.30. Its freaking funny. Watch it...

then TRANSFORMERS 2 which starts at 3...

its clear..

2009-07-12T06:11:00.000-07:00

I have been wondering about it for almost a fortnight. Its clear. I tried but it just couldn't happen.

Its clearly forcing myself. I am letting go.

Not everyone must fall in love :) or maybe I am just weird.

2009-07-02T04:39:00.000-07:00

I just wondered about my past memories. Am I satisfied? I somehow feel myself very weird.. -.- Am I? Time is running and I have loads of things lining up for me to do even after my major exams. I felt happy for other people but am I happy for me, myself? The feeling is hard to describe..

My SPM is really coming and stupid thoughts are still swimming in my head. Almost 100 days left!! Arghhh... The thoughts are really stupid, childish and indescribable. That is why I feel myself very weird. Shit it lah... Forget it.. I will still go on with my life as a happy-go-lucky girl no matter what people say and what MYSELF said :)

p.s I am really proud of you. Seriously :) feel very happy for you.

27th June 2009

2009-07-01T02:53:00.000-07:00

my cute little short wife overnight in my house. We did a lot of stuffs when we were about to sleep. Guess what is it? *laugh* Think as much as you can.

My dad bought tickets for an annual dinner. So the whole family of mine including my 'wife' went for that dinner. I love you. Just chit chat all the way thorough the dinner.

Just look through the pics and see what we did. keke

yup.. we were playing with each other's hair. Nice? she took it out :( so hurt.. I can be a great hair stylist. xD
i looked so busy. *laughs*

i love this pic. the effects are so nicely touched :)

her turn to help me out.

its just a simple hair style but she used about 1 hour plus to complete it. -.-

in the ballroom.

in the toilet camwhoring

hi!! I am back :)

2009-07-01T02:48:00.000-07:00

back from the amazing and beautiful Pulau Redang. I got my license for open water diving and I am now officially a PADI Open Water Diver. claps~ so proud of myself.

I will update more about it once I get my pictures.

Back from my dreamland then....

BAM!!!

'TAHNIAH! 'My ic number, my name' terpilih menyertai PLKN Siri 7/2010."

sht it! Should I go? Arrgh!!!

"holidaying"

2009-06-25T05:21:00.000-07:00

For this week, when I wanted to go out for lunch, people will asked, "didn't go to school?" I will answer back, "from Cempaka." They will immediately know what happened. My school has become so famous :)

This week really past very very very slowly. Maybe because of the excitement to SUNDAY! WOOT! REDANG :) My mum was like scaring me about how I cannot sit the plane to there coz I have a bit a running and blocked nose ><>

i try to open my heart, but you just couldn't come in. I somehow feel something when i realized its real.

H1N1

2009-06-21T21:58:00.000-07:00

sorry for not updating for quite a long time.

so many stuffs have been happening now.

H1N1 now is getting more serious in Malaysia.

We have to unite and work to together unlike some people who are such cowards.

Just a disgrace.

sigh.

I still came to school today :) good student right? My mum was like asking me to bring a mask. I didn't wear it except a few minutes for camwhoring. *laugh*

Pictures of the day~

JOSHUA LAM asked me upload this pic to advertise his "hotness".

long time ago post

2009-06-11T23:48:00.000-07:00

*laugh* this post is supposed to be on 7th of June. Late of updating due to DIVING LESSONS and moral folio. Diving lessons are so fun and will never forget about it. Just cannot wait for PULAU REDANG. WOOT!

kays. 7th of June is my kononya, ex-husband, JOSHUA LAM bun cit's birthday. Went to pavilion by my parents car and the birthday boy tumpang my car. We were hungry so we bought jcos mini :) cannot eat finish coz its time for our movies. 17 AGAIN! The movie is very funny. After the movie, we had about 4 hours to shop coz we booked our karaoke's time at 6.

Eat, eat, eat and walk, walk, walk for that 4 hours. David and jiayin arrived at about 5 something. Then we go redbox plus. I had a new name after that karaoke- waitress -.-

pictures of the day. enjoy~

see what the birthday boy is doing. *laugh* normal la..

camwhoring in the toilet

a changing room from a random shop.

went to some japanese dessert restaurant

jyiinnn :)

weishin n me

'ice creams' yummy~

before

after xD

boring~

2009-06-04T22:29:00.000-07:00

loads of homework to do and moral folio lining up to torture me :(

cannot wait for this sunday's trip :)

monday- wednesday diving lesson :D

feeling left out and lost and blur. zzzzzzzzzzz. don't give a sht!

orphanage trip

2009-06-01T06:09:00.000-07:00

so freaking sad k? its holiday and the form 5s have extra class!!

after 12, we went to Semenyih to visit Rumah Desa Jireh. We played and talked with the kids there. They communicate with us very well and I feel pity for them. With no parent's love, they still can manage to live a normal life and stay strong. We really need to salute them :) I have learnt quite a lot and this trip is also for our moral project.

Pictures

we played musical chair with them

at the guard house. duh.. they have good facilities in this orphanage

i will stay in the reality and try to open my heart.

save the world week

2009-06-01T06:00:00.000-07:00

one week of 'saving the world, campaign.

To be honest, I kinda learn quite a lot. Actually not really coz i know most the things they taught us but the saving the world thing just stuck in my head. I went for a buffet dinner yesterday and the buffet used polystyrene utensils. It just came into my mind that don't use too many of that because we must SAVE THE WORLD. *laugh*

okay.. being so pathetic but seriously, I think this campaign really helps:)

Hearts to the World Concert for me I think is a great success. Good job to every probates and prefects :) I missed the concert coz I was in the south hall doing the earth can thingi :( but I had fun in the south hall.

curl experience

2009-05-28T05:48:00.000-07:00

Yesterday ( 27th May)

after school, went back with woon yin's car. We go cut our hair :) My fringe like keep on touching my eyes. cannot tahan. We didn't cut our hair in a saloon but in a house. Her mum introduces a hair stylist who live in sungai long. So went to her house and cut our hair. We asked loads of questions about hair and she decided to curl our hair permanently. I wanted to try it coz after my high school, gonna perm and dye my hair. hehe. My curls.. Not bad lah. Kinda look old and mature but the aunty said coz my hair colour is still black, this makes me look older. After showering in woon yin's house, we went to pasar malam and then tuition.

So yeah, thats my day.

Hope tomorrow's Hearts to The World Concert will be a success. Everyone work hard for it.

Pictures of the day.

woonyin's fei lun zai :( so jealous. they coming here tomorrow!

bought this phone hanger in pasar malam. looks like a bun and smells like chocolate :)

i camwhore like crazy. took about almost 20 plus pictures. vain. keke

our curls :)

cutting my hair

washing my hair. look so retarded

save the world week

2009-05-25T06:53:00.000-07:00

Its SAVE THE WORLD WEEK.

Hope that I will gain something and create awareness to other people.

fahrenheit is coming this friday :(

*****************************************************

Its my mum's birthday tomorrow which is 26th of May.

I don't think I got the time to publish one post about it tomorrow coz busy with tuitions. Posting it now. Sorry mum.

Happy Birthday Mummy.

You brought me to this world and bring joy and care for me.

Thank you so much and love you :)

bought one pendant for you. hope you like it.

for 24th May post

2009-05-25T06:00:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday my Twin Brothers :)

went to Saisaiki Restaurant for lunch- its for my brothers and mum's birthdays.

freaking full coz its a buffet. I realized something. I have been eating Japanese food for almost every week. Can't stop it, japanese food is like my heaven xD

Then, went to Pavilion which is about 5 minutes walk from the restaurant. My leg was so painful coz of the blisters made from my shoes :( didn't want to shop much so my parents asked one of my brothers to teman me go redbox! (Amazing right? 1st time my parents encourage me to go, hahaha) So, sang just for about 1 hour and 45 minutes then we went for our movie- Night At the Museum 2

The movie is not bad and its very funny :) I enjoyed my day with my dearest family. *laugh*

Kar Jin- the elder twin (managed to take a shot of him-he won't ever take a picture with me)

in the car with Wai Jin- the elder one (a lot of people say that he is good-looking??)

*laugh* camwhoring in the car

we've got no fate. its so obvious after today. i go in, u go out. *laugh*

trip just after exam

2009-05-22T03:42:00.001-07:00

just after exam went to jusco.. still cannot believe i can go coz just went out last saturday. Went back with weishin and showered in her house. While waiting for her dad to come home, camwhore like crazy (1,2,3,4 xD) reached jusco at about 6 and i bought a present for my mum coz her birthday is coming.

Then, we go SING K!! :) the pictures are with weishin so will upload it soon. The pictures below are just a few from my phone when we were camwhoring in weishin's room.

so.. that's my day.

hehe

me and weishin dunno looking at what ><

weishin, penny, n me

Exams over :)

2009-05-22T02:57:00.000-07:00

My final school based exams are finally over!

I know its yesterday, but I've got no time to post about it. I went somewhere ( see the next post)

Time flew by so quickly and the next report card day will be my final report card day in my high school life :(

I can still remember my primary times and secondary times. Kindergarden, not so xD

but, i managed to find my kindergarden picture :)

sorry. a bit blur. can't really see faces.

p/s reckon anyone in that picture?

reach out for the sky

2009-05-18T06:36:00.000-07:00

LOVE + DON'T LOVE = CONFUSION

just a random phrase from me. Saw this rainbow just in front of my house today. It was so beautiful especially during sunset.

How i wish i could reach out to the rainbow and the sky and worried about nothing but just relaxing on the clouds ( i know. they are made up of water vapour- just dreaming).

obviously this is not the rainbow picture in front of my house. I didn't take that picture so took it from the internet. The rainbow really makes me smile :)

its for 16th of May post

2009-05-18T06:19:00.000-07:00

Sorry.. My internet connection died so cannot update EVERYDAY.

but.. it went back alive :)

16th of May

who's birthday?

should know lah. My dear friend since kindies :)

went out for lunch with weishin, penny, joshua, jia yin and of course the birthday boy, david.

was supposed to eat somewhere david recommend, but plan changed. Reach leisure about 1 something. Wanted to watch a movie, so we decided to watch angels and demons :)

ate our lunch in some japanese restaurant next to the cinema (can't remember the name) then we ate a birthday cake. Everyone fed the birthday boy a spoon of the cake :)

Went to watch the movie. Not bad larh. At the beginning, it was a bit boring coz it kept on talking about some religion stuff but climax was very exciting. hehe.

So, that's my day.

Pictures are with penny. So gonna upload the pics soon :)

stupid me.

2009-05-15T06:41:00.000-07:00

eeffing crazy right now! Got the feeling to blog again. So , yea. Its such a useless post and I created a blog for this.

STUPID ME!!

p.s I don't think anyone know my blog yet. duh~ obviously. I think i will be active in blogging again. i hope. So stop me if my posts are still so boring and lame. I will delete it again :)

to my dear f.a.m.i.l.y.

when u read this post, i just want to tell you that, i have a facebook account since last 2 weeks. *laughs* none of you have noticed :)